If only I knew how to be a committed writer

Isn't it the funniest thing that many writers. Especially those I went to school with to "become" writers, have the toughest time sitting down and writing. It's like a prerequisite to joining the world of writers. You must first, be good at procrastinating, and second, finish things right at the deadline-not a minute before. If you have deadlines, that is. Which I don't.

I am onto my painting for the day. I have to paint during the weekend as I have been incredibly exhausted the past few days but oh-well. The work must get done. I think I'm feeling some Colin Hay Pandora... or maybe some Creedence Clearwater Revival.

Oh the things the world has to teach me.

If only B.R. Cohn (Silver Cabernet) was filling a cellar under my house! I'd be so happy everyday when I got home from work to feel the dampness of the cellar, the dripping of the wine, and the sweet smell of swelling oak barrels. But alas! I live in the dead of the United States. Teaching preschool has been a rough past few weeks. I feel so ungrateful because I have been crying about not getting the job I "wanted." Even though I have no idea what that ideal "job" was. I thought, I want to write or edit or work for something towards furthering the education I started! Writing! Reading! English! In reality those jobs would pay much less than I make teaching. So, that would be much much less! ha-ha.

I don't know what I thought or expected, but I figured this was not it. Now way! Last week I almost walked out on the first job that I had found in four months! I was feelin' crazy angry at the world!

When I stepped back this morning to think about my thoughts and actions, I realized that I decided to stay here to be with the love of my life and that makes me angry with myself for complaining these past few days about my job, my pay, my expectations about what was after college.
A little gratefulness for having a job could go a long way!

I'm sure so many people feel this way and a lot of my friends have as of late. What do you know, I failed to listen to them. Now I understand! I give! A job is a job and just that. It's not always fun, it's not always going to be the source of my happiness, I am.

The sun started to Stay out more the past 2 days and I have been feeling so much better. I'm tired of being sad about what I don't have. I want to focus on what I do have, which is an amazing man in my life who loves me unconditionally and has supported me the past year in my random and sometimes amiss endeavors. I am so grateful for him and for his openness, kind heart, and warming love. My goal now is to be happy on my own each day... find something that made me smile and write it down in my journal. Four and five year old's aren't too bad. There are many things I love about them.

Focaccia

Last night I made homemade tomato and basil pizza with
homemade focaccia and picked up a new wine from Spain that I found
on sale. It was delicious. I paired the warm focaccia with
a lovely extra virgin olive oil and balsamic reduction for dipping.
I love cooking for my baby. MMMmm

Get Your Kicks at Brix?

Brix Review

There is a new 'Coporate' in Omaha, Brix. Their website, www.brixomaha.com says,
"Shop our retail store where you'll find extraordinary selections." Now, this would
be true if I had went there and found an "extraordinary selection." But I did not.
They offer half the amount of beers that you may find at beertopia, and their selection
of wines are simply not as vast as a large Hy-Vee or Baker's.

What I did find was a new space in Omaha, one that is attempting to wow the money
makers of Western Omaha with their simplistic modern look.
I do think that Western Omaha has been in need of a wine shop/cellar. However, I don't think this was the most appropriate choice. Easy, yes, appropriate and personal, no.
In order to say they have an extraordinary selection, they had to really wow me. Instead, when I walked in, the first items I saw were no better or worse than what you may find at the extensive selection of the Hy-Vee on 51st and West Center Rd.
This isn't to say the store didn't have its "ups."

The feel was very open and airy. When you walk in there are
carts available, more like an Applejacks of Colorado. They do offer a lot if you
are looking to host a party of some sort. They have a cheese section, liquor, beer,
and wine. I stood for about five minutes looking for a Goat cheese until
I finally had to ask an employee to point out the sections of cheese because the labels
were lost among the assortments.

I, personally, prefer to spend my time at Dundee's Cork & Bottle, Wine121, or
the CorkScrew.
While I love wine, beer, food, and cheese, I mostly enjoy something that is warm, personal,
intimate, and raw. If I want something corporate with a selection, I will simply run to Hy-Vee whereI know my prices are very competitive.