For the living

My week in SF was amazing. The weather, the wine, the shopping! Oh, the shopping. My heart yearns to be there yet many things I love are in the middle of the country. How do you know where your home is? Rahmin and I talked all night about the ideology of home being a comforting feeling perhaps in a relationship there is a sense of "home." Ideally, the more comfortable and welcoming our relationship, the more the love, the more we have a sense of home and commitment to that one person in our lives or to many people in our lives for different reasons. If I'm in love with my relationship here and in love with the idea of living in SF, how do I choose? Many of my married or coupled friends say its about compromise not about right or wrong. Compromise is shitty. Life is compromise, but out of compromise can't we renew our lives and our thoughts and find a life anew? Why not turn compromise into a new situation for the living, for the life we are breathing? Why does it have to be about this or that, choose one, or do not. Perhaps instead I will try and live and breathe and if I make decisions that end up not being the best or what I expected then can't I go back? But the going back may be different. Situations may change. People will definitely change. So the ultimate question is, how do we simply choose to live?

I'm going to do without the worry for now. Let life flow in and out of my being and simply feel content. The right decisions will come my way.